I think I lived in a fairy tale when I was young or I at least perceived my future would be one. Not only did I want to be successful, but I wanted to have a family that fit that mold also. You know, the kind that is PERFECT. Well, not only did I realize my perfection was not real, I also learned my children would not be that way either. My kids are not the walk in a straight line, no talking, face front kind of kids. They can be down right loud and rambunctious. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m certainly not ok with them being like that all the time, but then I remember they are just kids and they’re doing what kids do. I would find myself just so aggravated that they weren’t listening and grew frustrated when I just wanted peace and quiet. Then one day I know I heard God clearly say to me, “now you know how I feel.” I felt so bad for a moment and was so apologetic. God was teaching me a valuable lesson about my mothering. I guess this is how my parents felt too. Throughout my life He has given me so many chances. I messed up, thought I was grown, and just didn’t listen. But I’m forever grateful He didn’t give up on me and He didn’t turn his back on me. My parents gave me God as a foundation so even though I had periods of my life when I didn’t follow His rules, I knew I could run to Him at any time. I’m learning to do the same with my children. I can’t expect them to always get it right. My responsibility is to give them foundation by teaching them, praying for them, and being there to support them.
So training is now in session as I aim to take a different approach to how I mother my kids. I’m learning along the way and I have to keep any open mind.
Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
– Proverbs 22:6 (New King James Version)