I don’t even know how to begin this post. Let’s just say my emotions this weekend have been up, down, and all around. One minute I’m stressed, the next, I’m inspired. About what you ask? Just life. But I refuse to give up!
On Friday, my daily devotional was about being thankful in spite of. In spite of what the day brings; in spite of how the children behave; in spite of the financial struggles; in spite all of the chaos that may erupt. Just in spite of everything that gets thrown at you, just be thankful. Be thankful because you still have life. Be thankful because your struggle is not as bad as someone else’s; be thankful because you are not in the struggle alone.
Many times I feel defeated in mothering because as soon as one kid gets their act together, another falls off. It’s like they all can’t be doing good at the same time. I feel like I’m failing. Like they aren’t taking in and absorbing anything I’m trying to teach them. But then they do that one thing and I know they are listening. I’m easy bothered and flustered at times. And I can go from 0 to 60 in 2.5 seconds it seems like. Basically, I stress my own self out. Unnecessary stress as my husband would call it. Well, it’s not intentional, it’s habit. But I’m blessed to have a wonderful man who is patient with me. As he so eloquently told me on yesterday, I need to start seeing the positive and stop focusing on the negative. What’s so ironic about that (really God confirming), is this is the exact message spoken in church today. So often, our minds are clouded and distracted by all the negativity like bills, kids misbehaving, and deadlines at work, that we can’t see all the miracles that are happening around us. I know I’m definitely guilty of not paying attention.
Wouldn’t life be better if we’d focus on the positive and give more attention to those things as opposed to the negative ones? I’m challenging myself over the next week to stop stressing over the negative. Don’t worry about the bills, let the kids have some breathing room, laugh more, and relax a little. It may not be easy because I’m used to seeing the negative, but I’m going to try harder this week.
I refuse to give up. I can be honest in saying my faith is wavering at times and dependent upon the situation I’m facing. But I have to get better with this. I can’t continue to be sometimes up and sometimes down. I realize every day is not going to be a walk in the park, but I’m going to make it my goal to stop and smell the roses. Get it….park, roses.
Have a little faith, that’s all in takes to change your mindset.
Luke 17:6 – If ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed.